Being pregnant with Holden was trying. And not because of the high blood pressure, or the swelling, or the contractions.. but because the little turd was STRONG and literally beat the leaving hell out of my insides.
I didn’t feel him kick until 20 weeks, but once he started, he never stopped. He was active constantly. And as the weeks went on he just got stronger and stronger, to the point where i’d cry at night because he was running his knees along the outside of my stomach and it hurt so badly I couldn’t sleep. Those were not good nights. I never had the issue some women complain about, where the kid jabs into their ribs- Holden was just too low for that.. but I feel he made up for it in that he would dance on my bladder for hours at a time. Never a comfortable feeling. There were even times where I swore he was going to kick his way right through my cervix and he’d just drop right out.
Yes, feeling a baby move around is a pretty cool experience- but every single part of me was hoping this baby would be more laid back in the womb. Just relax, chill, and not kick my ass from the inside.
I started feeling little flutters probably around 12 weeks, nothing to get excited about, very well could have been gas. Started feeling little thumps and bumps around 14 weeks, very sporadically, still- nothing to get excited about. This IS my 2nd time around, so I know what to look for as far as how to know it’s baby kicking and not a gas bubble (unlike with Holden, where I don’t think I felt ANYTHING, literally anything, until 20 weeks).
This week? Kicks. Hard kicks. Kicks I can see on the outside of my stomach. And not even 17 weeks along.
Three weeks may not seem like much, but I am now concerned for my uterus and my organs and my bladder. If this kid is 3 weeks stronger than Holden, i’m in deep shit. I’ll be pissing myself at the end of pregnany from him stomping my bladder like an empty can.
I really didn’t think it could be possible for any baby to be a stronger kicker than Holden. Even now, Holden kicks the shit out of things, and it’s not fun when he drops a heel on you. Is this kid going to get bigger than Holden, and show him who’s boss? Sure, Holden needs a little reality check, but seriously, bigger than Holden? He’d be a walking wall.
I just need to stop that line of thinking altogether. I’m going to scare my va-jay into not wanting to push this sucker out in fear of his gargantuan size.
Before bed, i’m going to cross my fingers and wish for a small baby. SMALL BABY. Mama can’t handle 2 episiotimies again.. or.. more… ew.
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You know that feeling when you don't chew a chip all the way and it cuts you all the way down and you swear it's gonna kill you, but you go ahead have another right after? That's what it's like when you decide to have another kid.