Getting your hopes up

Being positive is a great thing to be, don’t get me wrong.. but it can lead to a lot of disappointment if things don’t work out the way you were hoping.

I have learned that the hard way many MANY times in my life, and while I hate to admit it- it’s made me a skeptic towards a lot of things. I don’t like to get my hopes up, to become to excited about something only to have all my happiness crushed when things take a turn for the worse.

The year 2008 was the best (or worst) example of that. Thomas was up for a BIG promotion and suddenly with no warning lost his job and made the rest of the year total shit for us. We were both so excited for what that promotion meant for us. A house, no more money problems, no more living paycheck to paycheck.. and when that all came tumbling down we weren’t sure what we were going to do or how we’d bounce back.

While I am not religious, AT ALL, I am a huge believer in luck, karma, and fate. I believe that if you do good things, good things will come to you. I believe there are signs and omens you should follow and heed. I believe people get into strings of bad luck.
I don’t want to say that Thomas and I deserve to have something good come our way, because what exactly defines being ‘deserving’ of something.. but I have a feeling something good is around the corner. It’s about time for something good to be around the corner, damnit.

Like I said, I don’t want to get my hopes up.. well shit, they kind of already are. It’s hard not to be excited when you feel like something good is about to happen. Doesn’t always work out that way.. but i’d like to think my feelings are right and that the signs are pointing the direction I think they are.
I know i’m being pretty cryptic.. but i’m also incredibly (and somewhat ridiculously) superstitious, so I fear talking about it too much will jinx me. Not superstitious in the sense that ‘if you step on a crack you’ll break your mother’s back’, because come on.. that’s a little ridiculous, but I do have a tendency to knock on wood, make wishes while passing through yellow traffic lights and things of that nature. Call me crazy, I don’t mind, but I think if you believe something so much it becomes real to you. You can MAKE your own luck sometimes. Hopefully i’m making mine good.

It’s another one of those situations where only time will tell. I’ll just have to see how it pans out, and keep my fingers crossed in the meantime.
The best thing to do, i’ve found, is to hope for the best and prepare for the worst. Getting blindsided by the worst.. is the worst. While it may seem negative to consider every possibility including the bad, it keeps you from getting too let down when things don’t go in your favor.

Cross your fingers, knock on wood, make some wishes, throw salt over your shoulder.. Do it for yourself, and if you’ve got a little extra time, do it a little for us too! We could really use the extra luck right now.

Posted on January 2, 2009 by Holdin' Holden 2 Comments
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  • Optimism never allows you to be disappointed, every opportunity whether good or bad poses another opportunity.

    While one door closes another opens.

    I am a big believer, almost to my downfall, of optimism. I am just one of those people. I lose a job, I get a better one. That’s pretty much how it goes.

    While I don’t want to get my hopes up either, I look at the company that we would be renting from, they seem to WANT to help people into their first home. So, maybe they will do what they can to get us into one either way. Seems plausible.

  • I am really hoping that this works out and you will finally have a solution to…that problem you have.

    I like Thomas’ way of thinking. Be optimistic/Don’t ya be a grumpy. LOL