The first time Thomas and I started browsing the baby monitor section was while adding things to my registry for my baby shower. Video monitors are cool, but looking at the $100+ price tag, we knew it was something no one would ever buy for us so we went for a good, but much cheaper baby monitor.
The baby shower came, and surprise surprise, no monitor was received. Lots of clothes, a stroller and other goodies- but no monitor.
Being strapped for cash, we bought an OK model. Nothing fantastic, but it had good ratings when I researched it online and wasn’t super expensive. Later down the line, some friends of ours bought us a much nicer model- but now that we already had one, we ended up taking it back and probably buying diapers. I don’t remember anymore.
Holden’s room is right across the hall from ours. Our entire house has wood floors, so everything echoes. We probably didn’t need a baby monitor because if he woke up there’s no way you wouldn’t be able to hear him- but it’s a nice thing to have. It was also a source of constant paranoia. I’d find myself lying awake at night listening to the monitor waiting for Holden to move, breathe, make a noise. He’s generally a VERY restless and noisy sleeper, so if I didn’t hear him moving, after a little while i’d race to his room and stare at his chest making sure he was breathing.
Then there were the nights where his constant moving would keep me awake. Every little grunt, whine, kick, and rustle would keep me from falling asleep. Eventually, like living near an airport, you get used to the noise and learn to sleep through it.
I’ve never heard of baby monitors having any kind of life expectancy (like straightening irons for your hair, those bitches die after 2 years), so i’m assuming the fact that we bought a cheap monitor finally caught up with us about a month ago.
Have to be incredibly careful turning it on, or it buzzes so freaking loud it would wake the dead. It started picking up interference (not like the creepy lady voice it picked up when Holden was a few months old) and buzzing constantly. You’d turn it down, and it would be WAY too low- but try to adjust it and you’d burst an eardrum when Holden woke up crying in the middle of the night.
Now, giving up the baby monitor was NOT something I was prepared to do. It’s become a source of comfort, knowing that if anything goes wrong.. even the most quiet thing, i’d be able to hear it.. but the ridiculous static buzz coming from it at all times has become more of a nuisance than a help.
In a way, i’ve traded annoyance for paranoia. It’s like being a new parent all over again. I worry I won’t hear something going wrong, I won’t hear him wake up and he’ll be in his crib whining for hours before Thomas or I wake up to hear him. All of this is probably just my mind getting the best of me- because when Holden wants to be heard, he knows how to get our attention.. but my mind always seems to get the best of me.
I would be tempted to go and get a new monitor, but how much more use out of it would I get, really? How long are you supposed to use a baby monitor for? I wouldn’t imagine most parents are giving theirs up yet.
Guess it’s back to hovering over him while he sleeps. Not that I mind, but I imagine he will with the amount of times i’m sure to wake him up by sneaking into his room, only to have the door and/or floor creak and pop.
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